Saturday, January 30, 2010

From catepillar to butterfly

I feel like a catepiller about to transform. For the longest time, let's say until I was about 13-14 years old, I was just a shell. I didn't talk, I didn't do anything by myself and I didn't even express any opinion whatsoever (except I wasn't afraid to say I had a crush on Apolo Anton Ohno.)

Over the recent years, I've started to build my cacoon...a cacoon of my identity. I opened myself up more and more, expressing what I wanted how I wanted. I got into photography and photomanipulation. I finally had my own testimony of religion. I stopped changing who I was to fit in with everyone else.

Like we all were taught in the first grade, after a period of time, the catepiller's cacoon breaks free and a butterfly emerges. I think this process is just starting to happen for me.

As you may or may not know, the state of MO has a program called "A+" and it basically means if you keep good grades/attendance, you get to go to a community college for free for 2 years. No brainer, right? Right. So, with this program, I get to go to a school that's less then 5 minutes away from my house, live at home, and work...FOR FREE!

Some of you may think it's better to go off to college, but lemme tell you...I'm not ready for that at all. Honestly. My wings haven't quite fully developed yet.

I applied for Maple Woods. I got in (everyone does as long as you know your name basically.) Even though it's considered "dumb" to go there, I think going into dept is dumber! Thank goodness for transfer programs...I'm so going to Utah State. Anyway...

I am officially a Maple Woods Monarch :)


KC Mom said...

I love that picture of you!!! So cool! Hey, I got into Maple Woods too...a few years that makes us both really cool.

Sheri said...

Way to go butterfly girl! I'm looking forward to you coming out to Utah for school---let's make sure we get you enough fry sauce at Arctic Circle!

Valsy said...

Didn't you learn learn anything from the wise teachings of Baba from Mulan? Sometimes the blooms that take the longest are the MOST beautiful. You will have some mountain pass moments that will force you to grow, and you will surprise yourself. Someday your Shang will show up at the front door (hopefully he will even be Chinese...keep it in the genes).
Gotta go, I have some HDTV Miss America to watch! :)
Loving you

Little Things in Life said...

You are so deep and thoughtful! :P
It's official. I'm a blogger.


Karen said...

You are amazing Aubrey - a very beautiful young woman. I think your decision is extremely wise. You will have to leave the nest soon enough...I say (sorry Matt & Val!) live with your parents AS LONG AS YOU CAN!!! Love you! =)

Sue said...

My daughter went away to school for her freshman year, and I think she's always regretted it. College carries a lot of new responsibilities, even when you attend close to home. So not having to adjust to living away from home at the same time can be a pretty good deal.

And besides, it's cheaper!